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20 but i feel
like 45
record playing
lower than my self esteem
goodie feeling goodie
boy i'm feeling goodie
feels like ima vomit
on this brand new hoodie
if you looking for me
don't be looking for me
i just copped a Casio
i'm feeling goodie
everybody watching knowing
they ain't looking
claiming they support you
but they really fronting
i don't need your money
i don't need your ears
i've been making music
all these fucking years
so why you asking if
i still make shit?
i can never stop
bro i can't quit
kick rocks till he figured
life is hard knocks
on your television
probably catch me on
the animal planet
or something boy i'm a dog
ferret to be exact
mean i'm skinny and lanky
no need to document that
got some lint on my pants but
i aint tripping for real
eight o clock in the morning
i'm tryna get me a meal
got some bacon and eggs
momma making some grits
I don't mean to sound bad
but your boy got the shits
I'm really with it though
check your centerfolds
i be in 'em fast as junkies when they
hear the po'
middle fingers while i'm rolling through
your suburbs
pointing fingers
who that be? that nigga
with the high waters on
but it's not that deep
shirt tucked
gold watch
same shoes on the feet
same board with the chip on his nose
why he quiet hoping nobody knows
they'll never know
they never know
hoping they never knw
they never know
never know where i be
where i sleep at
never know where i sleep
where I piss at
they'll never know
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2. |
twenty
03:10
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there’s a monster laying in my bed
i swear its me sometimes
i’m stuck between these lines
im sick rapping
i cant sing
my art sucks
my parents think im on drugs
how bout i sniff some coke
so i could show em
who they child was
or coulda been
really who i could been
cop runner
knowing oh so knowing i cant hop a fence
it was all a dream
cover of that fader magazine
and honestly been missing pages since the age of 17
don’t where i’m going
but i hope it’s not the end
where do i begin
i can’t even find a start my friend
20 but i feel like 45
i’m just getting old
pipe dream looking like a street cone
and home barely feels like home
so damn i don’t wanna go home
hate to quote you when i say this
but understand that everyday aint gonna be the greatest day
i’ll be in my room
thinking bout the old days
tunes playing low
prolly spin some o jay’s
not even gonna front everything is okay
i’m just over reacting as always
overthinking and thinking
'bout overthinking things
im up till 4 in the morning
just overthinking things
i could be making some music
but that don’t seem to work
arms smelly i ain’t changing my shirt
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3. |
mercury
02:01
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we can lay in bed
all day
for all i care
can we do nothing at
all
i swear it’s fine
i ain't tryna to waste your time
i’m just tryna kick it
sorry if these written rhymes
get a little corny
really i just want your odor on me
i got pizza on the way
im just asking in you stay
for a while
holding on your hands
while i’m looking at your smile
stutter when i
stutter when i speak
when you step around i can feel
my stomach weakening
presence keep me warmer
than the clothing i been sleeping in
running out of words
make me lose breath
ironically a fresher breath of
air
lungs never stress
lately thats all i been doing
ditching instead of pursuing
happiness
i found that
missing a peice i was chewing
but damn why this take so long
i was borderline a couple months ago
believe it or not
its crazy how this social
media can put a smile
but i been drowning in
this thing called life
but it’s whatever though
when you came around
make me feel like all is possible
mercury
oh mercury
you poison me
you’re beautiful
saturn where i stay
just hit me up and I just float to you
saturn where i stay
just hit me up and i just float to you.
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4. |
smile/idwg
03:48
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when you’re gone
please know
i care
i care
even though
you’re far away
i’m here
i’m here
i’ll still always write about you
i’ll still always think about you
all these songs i wrote about you
will always be about you
and i know that
i say
some stupid
shit sometimes
i swear i lose my mind
when
you look at me
you
make
me
smile
even though
you’re far away
i’m here
i’m here
when you’re gone
please know
i care
i care
i’ll still always write about you
i’ll still always think about you
all these songs i wrote about you
will always be about you
and i know that
i say
some stupid
shit sometimes
i swear i lose my mind
when
you look at me
you
make
me
smile
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5. |
maroon/violet
02:43
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i ain’t used to so much attention
closed mind
i’m sorry i cause tension
wait forgot mention
before we hang i got intervention
no im not insane i’m cool
but when you come around
i act like a fool
in other words lost
i don’t know what to do but
i don’t want you nervous round me
i just want you being around me
but enough about me
about you
face so-
girl i don’t know what do
lucky ass guy named me
cheeks color of maroon
maroon
lucky ass guy named
me
cheeks color of maroon
rose gold
blur
light tint fur
i just really tryna lock lips
with her
heart skip beat
heart beat skip
barely comprehend
when you talk to me
losing my mind
never unwind
im just really tryna lock lips
sometimes
hands lock hands
arms touch arms
scared but i feel
where i belong
violet
you’re the best
to me
and without you I can’t see
and without you I can’t see
and without you i can’t see
and without you i can’t see
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6. |
lone
02:31
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here i am
in my room again
all my friends are all right here
don’t talk too mcuh
don’t move too much
they just might disappear
i swear
or is it me
i’m just dumb
am i dumb? or alone?
am i dumb? or alone?
and its all bad
and it’s all bad
im just thinking bout the time that i don’t have
running out of drive
but i can’t crash
and it’s all bad
and it’s all bad
but the sun shines
but its too bright
thoughts went left
but im all right
ziplock
bag brain
never sealed tight
cardiac
off beat but its still slight
when the days done
and im at home
when i can’t sleep
and i feel dumb
never close eyes
always think twice
staring at my wall
and thats every night
am i dumb? or alone?
am i dumb? or alone?
alone
alone
lone
alone
lone
lone
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7. |
fuzz
01:38
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